At the beginning of 2024, under the influence of one of my undergraduate professors, I began keeping a sketchbook. I tried to take it with me everywhere I went. I quickly fell in love with the feeling of sketching while chatting with friends—it helped ease my anxiety to some extent. I often feel uneasy in unfamiliar environments, but sketching allowed me to slowly observe my surroundings. As I became more familiar with the environment through drawing, I would start to feel more at ease.

I usually began by sketching the part of the environment I was most familiar with—my friends who were with me—and then built out the surrounding scene around them. I didn’t think too much about composition; I simply drew what I saw. Most of the time, I found that the environment itself was already interesting enough.

After arriving at MICA, I went with friends to aquariums, cafés, and different restaurants. I visited friends’ homes, and they visited mine. Some pages were colored with watercolor, others were scanned and digitally colored. After finishing that sketchbook, I brought a new one with me to Amsterdam over spring break. Though the trip was only a week long, the sketchbook helped me capture many beautiful places.

My sketchbook drawings look very different from my illustration work, as if they were done by two completely different people. But in fact, the sketchbook gives me confidence; it is the foundation of everything else I create. I’ve learned to use many digital tools to make drawing more precise and efficient, but I’ve realized that’s not enough on its own. The sketchbook fills a certain indescribable emptiness—perhaps because it proves to me that even without relying on technology, I can still create something meaningful. Or maybe, it’s simply my own form of personal therapy.

   


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